EN4 - Signs and Portents

[Juri Saizesh]

She wasn't leaving the clinic early. Not tonight. Something was compelling her to stay. Her Compassion for those that struggled. It had been weeks, and even though she found herself bolstered, the weight of her conflict between punishing the Imperials and inflixting ad much suffering on them, and knowing that those thoughts could very much doom her.

She breathed in quietly, seeking to meditate, to focus on her center, the nature of the Force. The day had been full of excitement from the Quake.

[Dapper Dog]

OOC: Hard Discipline check add Force rating, can use pips for Advantage or Successes.

[Juri Saizesh]

It was calming as she sat, her eyes closed, feeling the Light, the Force flowing through her. Even after the quake, the terror of the Empire, it was still all part of the Galaxy, and she could focus on what was good, and true in the world.

EN4 - Signs and Portents - Willpower 3, Discipline 1, Hard Difficulty: 1eP+2eA+3eD+1eF 1 success, 1 Triumph, 2 Light Side

Results: 1 Triumph, 1 Success, converting the 2 Light Side pips to advantages.

[Dapper Dog]

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There is an old place deep among massive trees of the green sea, and she sees an older woman gathering water from a pool in a large earthen clay jug. Once complete she seals it with stopper and then placed leather straps and wore it like a backpack as she made her way through these twilight woods and then she paused before entering a dark thicket and said, “I see you child, there are so few of us left, and you are young.”

“If you wish to speak do so in person, come alone… I don’t like guests. Now leave me be, best you don’t come at all.”

She went into the thick brush and was gone and her sight returned to this world.

[Delia]

Delia prepared her tea and said, "So will you go to her?"

[Juri Saizesh]

"Yes." She spoke with conviction, her eyes fluttering open. Fingers running over the arms of the chair, she sat up, breathing in the air slowly, tasting it. A small smile looking to Delia.

"She seems angry. Given the situation, I don't blame her."

[Delia]

"Alone?" she added.

[Juri Saizesh]

She paused. Thinking on it. "Respect for a Witch's home is important. She did ask." Chewing on her bottom lip, mulling it over. "But these are also dark times. With so few Nightsisters left, it wouldn't be safe." The young witch stood, idly touching her amulet as she thought.

"But there was such clairty in the moment. The Force flowed so strongly, and I trust in it, wholeheartedly."

[Delia]

"Then you have your course," she said warmly.

[Juri Saizesh]

Juri nodded, walking to Delia, reaching out, taking a hand with both of hers if her friend allowed. "I will head out, first thing in the morning. Well rested, and mentally prepared." Warmth was returned as she spoke.

"Like you said. To not act on instinct, or without conviction, would be to fail."

[Delia]

"You have more wisdom than I did when I was you age," she said with a smile.

[Juri Saizesh]

"I don't know about that. I had to learn from... Mother Talzin's example." Her smile faltered, the memory of pain ever present. "Flip flopping on a decision led to that end."

[Delia]

"Choices are difficult," she said honestly.

"What was this Mother Talzin like?"

[Juri Saizesh]

"She was wise. Talented. Deeply knowledgable about our traditions, and a powerful Witch." Juri looked away. "She put in our lot with the Separatists, to aid Count Dooku. But then turned on him. Granted, it was to aid a long lost Sister, but..." the Witch shook her head.

"Even with that, I learned a powerful lesson. To not let myself be consumed by the need for Vengeance. We should have remained out of that conflict. But everything was clouded. I won't ever know what fully motivated Mother Talzin." She chuckled a little darkly.

"My direct matron was Soltzai. I had very few conversations with Mother Talzin, but those brief moments I did... she did care for the Coven, deeply."

[Delia]

"It is never an easy choice when you have to choose between someone or something you care about and the good of the whole," she said with a nod.

[Juri Saizesh]

"No. It isn't." She ageeed, sighing softly. "And you can never be sure which decision is the right one. I guess that's why you have to reach for instinct, come what may."

[Delia]

"An important lesson for anyone especially those that can feel the Force is to understand that you will make the wrong decision," she said honestly.

"That was difficult lesson even for me to learn. I still have problems with it."

[Juri Saizesh]

"How do you handle it? That uncertainty? When I feel it... sometimes it feels like I could freeze, and just not make one. But that's even a choice, and I know the wrong one."

[Delia]

“I remember that inaction can be useful, but in many moments simply doing something is nearly always better than doing nothing. It really depends on much time you have to contemplate the action,” she said in response.

“That feeling of uncertainty may never truly go away, but that is good. I feel it must be a true act of hubris and arrogance to act without some reservation or consideration of the consequences.”

[Juri Saizesh]

"True." She listened closely to her friend, the wisdom of milennia landing home. "The folly of pride and arrogance can just... make you discard everyone, and everything. Even yourself." She slumped back against the chair slightly.

"But it's so hard to just let go, and trust the Galaxy, as well. When it feels like everything is slipping away."

[Delia]

"Letting go is the Jedi way, I was never a Jedi, nor do I espouse simply letting go. Knowing what to discard is a better way of seeing it, we sometimes hold onto things that have no value or worse tear us down simply because we wish to feed our ego," she said.

[Juri Saizesh]

Juri listened closely. "Again, a more active stance, than something more passive. I will have to remember that. Take it to heart." The Witch mused, knowing that it could apply to her.

Was she driven by ego? Or was she truly acting to preserve her people?

"The path of the Nightsister. Should it remain as it was? Am I being foolish in clutching it so tightly? Or can it adapt to this new order?"

[Delia]

“No one can tell you that Juri, but yourself. I was Sith for a long time, I shed that because it did not suit me, but that does not mean that shedding who you were is right for you. You will have to discover what is your path, and it may just be that you have found it and only need to be reminded of it,” she replied.

“These existential questions are sadly difficult to answer, as they tend to be intensely personal.”